Good Enough - Evanescence
Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.
Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...
Good enough,I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?
So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.
written at 9:59 AM
Just Like Heaven - Katie Melua
Many nights ago, I had a dream that left me uncertain where this would lead me eventually and shocked at my own warped imagination. And yet, it felt extremely real, like it already happened and I felt extremely happy, in a weird sort of way. And today, I've finally found a song that represents it. Almost word for word.
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed his face and kissed his head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make him glow
Why are you so far away? he said
Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you
You, soft and only
You,lost and lonely
You, strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream
You're just like a dream
Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe his name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only boy I loved
And drowned him deep inside of me
You, soft and only
You, lost and lonely
You, just like heaven.
Just like heaven.
written at 3:21 PM
unfounded.
When we whisper in the dark
you set my summer song on fire
every word sends me falling
right off the side of the world.
(I do not know what is said yet, for
the prayers I make are dim.)
This love that's out of reach
ominous, shrouded
way beyond our grasp.
It is this love we so wish for
in time to come (but not so soon, love.)
But all the world can carry on without us
for all we need is this(love
which we do not know as yet.)
I find solace where you are
(I still cannot say where that is)
and I promise,
speechless you shall be.
written at 6:56 PM
Sober - Kelly Clarkson
And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all these fears weighed on me
3 months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flower
But I know it's never really over
And I don't know
I could crash and burn, but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry bout my timing
I wanna get it right
No comparing, second guessing
No, not this time.
Not this time.
written at 3:25 AM
Before your love - Kelly Clarkson
I wonder how I ever made it through a day
How did I settle for the world in shades of gray
When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know why
And I looked into your eyes
Where the road stretched out in front of me
And I realized
I'd never lived
Before your love
I'd never felt
Before your touch
And I'd never needed anyone
To make me feel alive
But then again,
I wasn't really livin'
I'd never lived
Before your love
I wanted more than just an ordinary life
All of my dreams seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before you and my heart is in your hands
And I don't know how
I'd survive without your kiss
Cuz you've given me
A reason to exist.
written at 12:36 PM
After the Rain.
On this side of Earth where it doesn't snow,
We don't need the ember's gentle glow.
In this part of the world where winter is warm,
We stay indoors in a tropical storm.
Over here, there's no need for coats and gloves;
Sunshine and rain are what fall from above.
No, in this place we call our home,
The only warmth we need is our own.
Here, the cold we know is pain
And the warmth we long for is after the rain.
written at 9:29 AM
Few and far between.
You (few) readers are probably people I don't know, unless you're a friend and got linked here from my blog. But in any case, I'm sorry if my poems (and choice lyrics) lately have been very strangely affiliated with 'love' or rather, the absence of that four-lettered word. These are mostly poems from the past 3 months, where I have probably written more than ever. Sorry if they're really angsty. They're from the bottom of my heart.
You said you loved me, or at least that's what I heard
But every time you were around me, you never said a word
You'd never watch a sunset with me, you never held my hand
Talked about it all day long, now I finally understand
You never loved me (you just said it cause you felt obliged)
You never touched me (you said you wanted to, you lied)
You never heard me crying for an hour or two
You never understood what I meant to you.
Pounding my fist on the bathroom floor
Screaming my heart out, wanting more, tearin out
The pages of my diary, drenched with tears
Plagued with discursive nightmares and fears
of you, and its killing me just thinking of
you
You followed me home every day after school, like a
dog, on a leash, never barked at me (just played dead)
like a goldfish that I overfed with ignorance and now you're
Saying its my fault (like you did before)
But I can't help but think this is one overplayed scene
In my mind, and I'm drawing the curtains of all we used to be
Of every memory
Of you and me.
written at 5:37 PM
Ignorance.
If I screamed at a flower,
and I said:
Bloom! Bloom for me!
Would it obey, or just
wilt and decay.
If I called to a cloud,
and I said:
Cry! Cry for me!
Would it comply, or just
tumble off astray.
If I yelled at the sky,
and I said:
Shine! Shine for me!
Would it listen, or just
darken its day.
If I knelt by your heart,
and I whispered:
Love; Love me, my sweet.
Would it understand, or just
leave me today.
written at 3:09 AM
Loved by you - Natasha Bedingfield
Do I look different?
Won't be surprised if I did
Cause it isn't that often
that someone affects me quite like this
And there's only one to blame
that I've been all rearranged
and if it's showing on my face, that's because
Somebody loves me
more than I thought was possible
Somebody's changed me
and it's you that's responsible
you gave me your heart
don't need anymore evidence that I'm loved
Somebody gets me
and it's not just coincidence
somebody's for me
and it makes all the difference
you gave me your heart
Don't need anymore evidence that I'm loved
by you
Cause I'm changed
for the better
I'm changed for good
I'm changed for the better
I'm changed for good
The world's lookin' sunny
Cause that's what you do for me
Somebody loves me
more than I thought was possible
Somebody's changed me
and it's you that's responsible
you gave me your heart
don't need anymore evidence that I'm loved
Somebody gets me
and it's not just coincidence
somebody's for me
and it makes all the difference
you gave me your heart
Don't need anymore evidence that I'm loved
by you
I'm loved by you.
written at 7:57 AM
